Learning to walk

I got again to that point in time where things finally seem to go my away. Many times in the past I felt like this: that I had reached that starting point where I wanted to be. Every time I took a step forward I fell into the abyss, got chased by cops and had to start all over again. Again and again. I really want to take a few more steps and walk across the bridge that crosses this abyss. Help and push me, please...